August 20, 2007

a letter to my Father in heaven.
it's not my glory but my Father's glory.
I give thanks to Him.

Psalm 16

A Michtam of David

1 Preserve me, O God, for in You I put my trust.
2 O my soul, you have said to the LORD, “You are my Lord, My goodness is nothing apart from You.”
3 As for the saints who are on the earth, “They are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight.”
4 Their sorrows shall be multiplied who hasten after another god; Their drink offerings of blood I will not offer, Nor take up their names on my lips.
5 O LORD, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup; You maintain my lot.
6 The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; Yes, I have a good inheritance.
7 I will bless the LORD who has given me counsel; My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
8 I have set the LORD always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
9 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices; My flesh also will rest in hope.
10 For You will not leave my soul in Sheol, Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.
11 You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.



"Father, I admit my mistakes, I pray for your grace and forgiveness upon me.
I repent to you for all my actions.
I am full of pride. I am rebellious. I didn't want to step out of my comfort zone. I gave excuses for not doing what is right. I took a wrong big step, a wrong turn towards the devil. I walk the wrong way.
I admit times and times again, I turn away from you. I admit when you ask for obedience from me but I walk right off.
I ask myself why do I say I love you,
but still I'm doing the wrong things. I do sometimes curse and swear. I do sometimes do things that you doesn't agree with it. I do sometimes scream at my parents.
Although times and times again; you told me it is wrong,
although times and times again; you forgive me but still I choose to do the wrong things. Sometimes when I was tempted, I never control myself.
I never rely on your strength but only mine.
I told myself you wasn't there for me but I always knew and felt you so near.
It wasn't about me anymore.
Father, I pray for your forgiveness upon me. Let me do the right things. I don't want to talk the talk but walk the talk. I want to be humble. I can only do all things thru you. I want to be broken towards you.
Brother Edmund once say we should always die to ourselves in order to serve you well, I pray you will give me strength to step out of my comfort zone.
I admit there are so many times, you ask me to reach out to certain people, I'm sorry for my unwillingness.
God, let me be there always for you. I need the breakthru.
I want to run to you. revive me, transform me, renew me.
It's not about me, but it's about you.
God, let me walk the right path. Teach me your ways.
Heaven and earth will fade away, but you will be there.
I wanna stay with you forever.
grow me like never before.
I pray when I do the wrong things, punish me.
Humbly I come to you.
torance want you"
Thru Christ, all things are possible.

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